Hi there & welcome! I’m Carolyn, Cara for short, and I’m so glad you’re here.

A little bit about my site

I started this blog as a means to heal & recover from my chronic pain and fatigue of the illness Myalgic Encephalomyelitis (ME) or as it’s also known Chronic Fatigue Syndrome (CFS). I thought that by writing out my thoughts & feelings & sharing them, that I would be able to make sense of the pain I was feeling and get the answers to my problems. Boy was I wrong.

Instead I got a whole lot more questions. And it was through the art of seeking that I was led to the conclusion that the asking, searching, and scouring are exactly the elements I needed to continue to heal. I (reluctantly, at first) deduced that healing is a process, not a destination. The finding eventually came, but it was the seeking that proved to be the most powerful antidote. So this is not the place with all the answers, but it is the place I continue to seek & share what I dig up along the way.

So wherever you may be on your own journey of healing, be it from illness or loss or unfortunate circumstance, from past pain or present pain, or even if your not quite sure from what, let’s choose to work with what we’ve got. I invite you to laugh with me, to cry with me, to shout with me, to crash with me, and to get back up with me.

A little bit about me

I’m 27, I live and manage my illness without any medication, I work as a hairdresser part-time, & just enrolled in my first year at a community college for an Art degree. I’m joyfully married to an amazing man named Justin who was active duty Air-force, and is now in the reserves while he gets his degree in Nutrition Science at Syracuse University. So for now we live in Syracuse NY, and then from here…who knows? (This used to scare the shit out of us, now it excites us and scares the shit out of us).

We have been married 9 years, and have moved 6 times across the country (& across the pond once). We have a 70 pound, sassy and cuddly rescue pup named Onyx Maria who you will probably see pictured more times than the two of us put together. We are both from Arizona originally, and that’s where most of our dear family still lives, and roasts, but they seem ok with it.

I love to write, to work with my hands, and to have my quiet time to think and dream. I am a pisces through & through, with a scorpio ascendant (I also love astrology). I practice yoga, and I am just getting back to being able to run and handle body weight workouts at home which I am really proud of. The best thing that my illness has taught me is to figure out what is important to me, and to let go of what it not. This also is a process.


Kindly, Cara




“The greatest gift I can give to the world no matter how I feel physically, emotionally or spiritually is my kindness.”